Saturday, March 3, 2012

You are Mine.

While praying one day a woman asked, “Who are you, Lord?” He answered, “I Am.”
“But, who is I Am?” she said.
And He replied…
“I Am Love, I Am Peace, I Am Grace, I Am Joy, I Am the Way, the Truth, and the Light…
I Am the Comforter, I Am Strength, I Am Safety, I Am Shelter, I Am Power, I Am the Creator, I Am the Beginning and the End, I Am the Most High.”
With tears in her eyes she looked toward Heaven and said,
“Now I understand. But, Lord, who am I?”
Then God tenderly wiped the tears from her eyes and whispered,
“You are Mine.”

My mom came across this quote and had it framed for me. It sits at my desk. They are such powerful words. If you are ever feeling like you don’t matter, don’t belong or don’t have a purpose, read this. When will you quit running from who you know you were created to be? That quiet voice stirring in your heart is not just a coincidence. That is the Holy Spirit moving and speaking to you. Listen. Follow. Know that you belong to the God of all these things and more.

Thursday, March 1, 2012

Can you hear the words comin outta my mouth?!

NOT REALLY.

Well. I go and see an ENT specialist next week. I have been having pretty bad ringing in my ears and high pitch noises are really painful. I have always had a slight ringing in my ears but it seems as the years have gone on the ringing and pain has gotten worse. I was told that taking the Chemotherapy drug Cisplatin could possibly have side effects including some hearing loss. I have had hearing tests in the past but nothing was found wrong at that point. It has been years since my last one and I really feel that things have slowly gotten worse since then. I feel like my ears are stopped up like a cold,ringing in the ears, painful to hear loud sudden sounds, high pitch noises hurt. I am not sure what the problem is but I figure it is time I get my ears looked at.

Please keep me in your prayers. I am confident that everything will be ok but it does make me a little nervous not really knowing. I have been doing a little research online since making the appointment and found a good article on hearing loss from cisplatin. Osteosarcoma survivors have a higher risk of getting that side effect because of the dosage.

http://www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2005/12/051212164355.htm

Could I really have a side effect so many years post treatment? Have I always had something wrong and just didn't notice till it became my normal? Any other survivors having to deal with these types of side effects?

Until then, I wait...